Dear John

God, I hate how that sounds. Like it's a bad break up letter. Or it makes me think of that great book/awful Amanda Seyfreid movie. I hate her... her face looks funny to me. Not that that's important because you haven't seen the movie and you probably don't care.
So I'm up late tonight... I can't sleep. And I've been reading about this couple in the marines. Katie and Chad Wade. They have been together for over 2 years. Chad recently left for his second deployment. On December 1st, Katie got that well known often dreaded knock at the door. She's been blogging since before that knock, and she's blogging still. She's an inspiration to me. Herself and her husband, true heroes in my eyes.
It's funny how in the midst of a deployment, when you have so much other stuff on your mind you sometimes forget the risks the soldiers are taking. Sometimes the fact that I could lose you escapes my mind. I shouldn't let it. I shouldn't let my guard down.
I miss you... so much. I'm so blessed to be able to talk to you everyday when some wives go weeks, months without talking to their soldiers. If they ever talk to them again.
There's a lot in my life I have taken forgranted... you are definitely one of those things. I have been so lucky to have found my soul mate. To have had your child. To be your wife. I'm so lucky to wake up to you when you're home. To cuddle you at night. To cook your dinner. To clean up after you. I'm lucky to have everything I have with you. And I thank you for bringing me into your life. For being a part of mine.
I'm glad we both have taken the time to sit back and appreciate more of the little things. I'm glad we've been working on the little problems we've had in our marriage. I'm glad we've been making more plans about our future. I can't wait until you come home and we start our new life together in KY. When we're on a new base with a fresh start in life and in love.

It's been 208 days since this started. 60 days since I last saw you. Words can not express how much I wish you were here. But you are an amazing part of my life, whether near or far. And I'm so happy to have that. I'll see you soon baby. I know that. I love you. I can't wait until you're in my arms again.