Day 70 and Anxiety Issues

As R&R looms ever closer I'm beginning to hate the fucking little monster. I'm thinking of how excited I am to see my husband, but how bad I'm going to hate it. 2 weeks and then he's gone. That's 14 days. 840 hours. 2400 minutes. Or 144,000 precious little seconds. And then he'll be gone again. For about 7 months give or take. Which would be all fine and dandy, if it weren't such a goddamn tease. What is 14 compared to 365? The only thing that is helping me keep my head up is knowing that this has and end. And it has to end before such and such date according to his orders. So I have SOMETHING to look forward to. This whole year bullshit is for the dogs. My cousin is a Marine that recently got back, after 9 months. 9 months? And they are supposed to be the tough guys? Then why is my man still gone a whole year? I guess the few and proud get special treatment? That's some class act bullshit right there. (For those of you who have comments about why they have short deployments, cram it, I'm venting. Just let me do so. I love all men and women who serve our country no matter what their insignia/logo/whatever you call it is. Just let me vent.) This is just such schoolyard bullshit. And R&R is an evil little bastard.

In other news, it looks like john is going to re-up. Which I'm all for. It also looks like we stand a chance of getting the hell out of this unit. Which is wonderful because I'm quite tired of playing bullshit games with the fucking morons in it, plus I don't want to move to El Paso. It's also bad, because I don't want to leave Hood. I kinda have friends here and I like it. It has become a home that we have built together. But that's life. You go where it takes you and you rebuild. At least we will hopefully (crossing my fingers) be closer to all of my family.

Now, onto Anxiety issues.
I'm leaving AL in like 2 days to go visit my sister whom I've never met in OH. Her and her husband and my niece and nephew. I was hoping to meet my other sister as well but it was looking like she might have had too busy of a schedule. however it has recently come to my knowledge that she will be there... which is great, kind of amazing actually... but there's a couple things that have my mind racing. Kristin, I have talked to a lot and we're really close and I'm excited as hell. Brittany however, we haven't talked much, which puts me on edge... I'm nervous, like big time. What do I say to a sister I don't know? Hell I barely know either of them.
Also, I'm worried. my dad has this fear that this will all be a 20 questions thing. A "Why did you/didn't you do this for the past 20 years" set up. And since he mentioned it, I'm stressing over it.
Meanwhile Kristin is expecting something to come up and cause us not to make it and everything is just... ODD. I don't know how to feel, and I will probably be a nervous wreck until I get up there and find out everything is okay, but I really hope this isn't dramafest 2010.