My life does not revolve around deployment!!!

We're over 2 months into this. I'm adjusting to you being gone, you're adjusting to being away. And now you're being more clingy than ever. i have literally sat in front of my computer bored as hell with nothing to do for 6 hours waiting on you to get online 6 hours late. I sign into yahoo on my phone so that if you get online when I'm not home, I can still tell you I love you and chat for at least a minute. And yet, because I fell asleep (during a 6 hour wait for you) you decide to tell me I'm blowing you off because I'm not awake and at my computer drooling over talking to you every damn time you log on? WTF am I supposed to do? Never sleep because you might call? Never go anywhere because I have to be at the computer if you get online? I am not that kind of army wife. Sitting here for hour on end drives me nuts. It makes it 13 thousand times worse for me. You know what I do while I sit here? I worry. I worry that you aren't going to get online. I worry that you are hurt. I worry that you won't come home... I love talking to you, and I am so privileged to get to speak to you everyday. But my life did not stop when you left. I can't let it stop because you want to see me everyday on cam. I can't let it stop because you want me to talk to you every chance YOU get. I can't just revolve around your schedule. I have my own schedule as well. And you have no idea how bad you just hurt me by telling me I was blowing you off. By treating me like crap and acting cold to me because I fell asleep or because I waited 2 hours and then decided to take my friend home (of course then you signed on) because I THOUGHT you weren't getting online. You're making me feel like utter crap. I don't know if it's because you're sad or if it's because this deployment is really taking it's toll on you or what. But you've never been clingy, and now is NOT the time to start. I know you want to talk to me, and I love that... but you need to think about someone else beside yourself for a moment. I love you. I can't wait to talk to you again whenever we get the chance. Have a good day at work.